Okay so I’ve been having bizarre dreams lately. And I think it’s time to write them down and evaluate them. I’ve always been interested in dreams to understand the meaning of them.

So last night I dreamt that I bought a plane ticket out to China.

No, I have never thought about visiting China. But anyways I ended up in China, at some hotel/house/apartment complex. Got a room and decided to wander the streets of China. At that point of wandering I am pretty lucid at this point where I am enjoying my time on the streets. I eventually end up at a graveyard. I’m usually scared to walk through graveyards. I’ve never been through a graveyard in the states.

The last time I was at a “graveyard” was in Vietnam. And it’s very different environment compared to the states. Anyways, at this point in my mind I had to make a decision to go through this graveyard or to walk around it. I looked up at saw families and little children running around. I knew that I need to face my little fear and just walk through the graveyard. I walked through the broken hills of gravel, dirt and grass. I ran into some tourists? or maybe they were just residents in the area. 3 guys. No idea who these boys were. They seemed polite, peaceful and attractive. They walked me through a little and I felt a little more comfortable where I was. Eventually I leave these boys and kept wandering the alleys.

I run into an alley of a bunch of people and i recognize all these people. My 8th grade boyfriend was there with his little brother whom I just saw perform at a school play. I acknowledge the little brother but not my 8th grade crush. Which immediately when I realized that I gave my 8th grade boyfriend a small hug. As I was hugging him, I looked up over his shoulder and saw one of my friends since junior high school. I shouted her name and she looked up surprised as ever. Both wondering what are you doing in China? I don’t remember the banter between the two of us, but I kept walking and eventually I bumped into my sister in law. I was ecstatic to see her and was wondering where my older brother was. She took me back to their place. It was small like a hallway, just a room. Nothing else. They had a bed, a chair and their laptop set up. I immediately went on the internet and googled where I was so I could locate the place I was staying at and it seemed as if I was only about 10 min walk from where my brother an his wife were staying. I sat there wondering why i was here? My brother and his wife were their for their architecture projects and plans. And I found myself thinking, I never even told anyone I was going to China. And I wanted to keep it like that for a little bit.

It felt good to walk through the graveyard by myself sticking up for myself figuring out and breathing freely without a worry in mind. I eventually ended up back my hotel, which I was nervous I choose the wrong hotel with no privacy. At that point I was wondering if I’d have to call into work, but what was i going to say? I need a week off? I’ll be back in a couple days? Then I just found myself walking around checking out the old building and seeing how i’d be living for the next couple of days.

Kinda crazy right? It was definitely nice to be far away from everyone for a little bit….

Looks like I need to plan a vacation.